I am unconditionally and irrevocably in love with you.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Sorry for the delay, will blog tomorrow instead.

I just got discharged from the hospital.

XOXO

Thursday, October 8, 2009

"Some prices are just too high, no matter how much you may want the prize. The one thing you can't trade for your heart's desire is your heart."

I got up early this morning as mentioned in the last entry because I had a final interview for my attachment. Don’t worry I managed to get out of bed on time. I calculated the time I needed to prepare and travel last night, thinking that I had sufficient time but I was actually 5 minutes late in the end. I thought I was in deep shit for being late but.. I guess I was too early. I sat in my classroom with all the other interviewees and we waited for about 2 hours before the interview started because some of the students had yet to take their first interview. Lucky for me most of them were my classmates or people I knew so it wasn’t exactly boring. Still I wasn’t really happy with the schedule of the school because this wasn’t the first time it happened. During my first interview, not only did they made they made my class miss lesson by conducting the interviews during my lesson time but how about those who are not applying for the job. The poor fellows went to school and left 5minutes after, they were not even informed anything. I still don’t get the point of even making them school when class is cancelled. Well, I think they should do some time planning in future.

Back to my main topic.. I am very satisfied with what the company representatives of my attachment offered me. I agreed to do attachment for them after hearing what the job scope and wages were. I was pretty nervous at first though, imagine 4 eyes staring at you but slowly I got more comfortable. So it went smoothly, I guess.

After the interview it was already a quarter to 1pm, I had to get hurry up to my classroom before I miss anything important. As for today, the time passed quite fast during my lesson because we were playing tables games with my casino teacher. He was teaching us how to play and the rules of some casino table games. I hope we get to play more tomorrow!

Mr James, remember that guy I praised in my previous entry? He fetched me from school.. He even offered to send me to school early in the morning and wait till my class ended, the night before. Now you know why I always say I’m such a lucky girl! We had lunch at his favourite wanton stall near my school before heading home. I made yummy chocolate cornflakes in the afternoon, and I’m proud that it turned out way better than before. I will definitely make again sometime soon and I promise to post pictures of them! James and I killed time by playing with my siblings card games. The punishment for losing was a smack on the hands. Sounds like a simple punishment? Believe me, it’s not. My siblings are one violent little kids; everyone’s hands were all red after playing. I really had a fun day, even though it was a simple day. Maybe because when you’re with your loved ones, simple things can be great wonders to you.

Dinner was great by the way; mother never failed to cook such lovely and yummy dishes! My my.. I better stop overeating. I’m feeling really guilty now, just by thinking back about the amount of food down my stomach now. I’m signing off now, Mr James is waiting for me. XOXO

Ps. I’ll promise to take more pictures of my life and surroundings. I was planning to do so the past few days but I kept forgetting to bring my digital camera out!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

"The way to be nothing is to do nothing. "

I just had a great meal which I ate so much like there is no tomorrow. I guess, I gained about two kilograms for stuffing myself with so much food today. I guess I do deserve to overeat, once in awhile. Not forgetting to mention, the cool and refreshing bath I had before that. Oh my, I’m already getting tempted to have a good night’s rest right now.

So as you all know, though I look like a 13 year old kid. I actually turned 18 years old very recently. While I was eating, an idea struck me.. I decided to write an entry to share with you all about what I’m proud of achieving today and what I wish to achieve but just a sneak peak of it okay? I can be pretty lame at times.

I'll start with the achievements first. Though honestly I haven’t achieve much yet, I’m still working really hard of it. I’ll write an entry of what I wish to achieve tomorrow..

For those who know me well, I’m sure you all know what the first one is. It’s actually being able to meet and lucky for me, be with a wonderful guy who understand me and love me for who I am. Whose name is James.. I feel so lucky and honoured to be in love with such a talented, handsome and intelligent guy like him. Though at times, I feel really bad he have to go through my many nonsense.

I always had this tiny little phobia of feeling lonely. (Don’t judge me. If not I make this into a private blog.. Hehe, just kidding) I didn’t exactly like the feeling of being an outcast and I wanted to feel like I belonged in where I was. So I did a lot of silly stuff, just to let people know that I wasn’t someone to bully. It’s actually pretty much a long story but to cut it short, I mixed with bad people who my parents disagree with me mixing with and being a teenager in the rebellious stage I just would not stop to even listen. After some disasters and soul searching, I did manage to think straight eventually. But what I learned is not to be so naive, and I’m going to apply what I learned till I grow old.

Third on the list, is getting my parents to trust me once again. Believe me, I screwed up real bad before and I don’t wish to screw it ever again. I’m very grateful to them for not giving up on me, when I was in the rebellious stage. They had always been here trying to guide me whenever I need to make important decisions, even till now. And of course, I do believe that I am luckier than other kids out there. ☺

Last achievement that I am going to share is with you all. Is the ability of controlling my temper but still it fails on me now and then but I’m proud that I improved on it.

There are a lot of things I want to achieve in life, who doesn’t? If you asked me to tell you one by one, I doubt that I will be able to end. But don’t worry, I’ll write something interesting tomorrow. Promise, *big smile*

I’m finally done with my very long entry.. I guess I have to say goodnight for now as tomorrow will be an early morning for me. I need to report at school by 10am for my final interview with Hollywood resorts. Let you all know the outcome when I get home. Wish me luck! XOXO

♥ Ps. When you smile, my heart was going a thousand miles.

Monday, October 5, 2009

With every heartbeat.

There is always the raindrops.

so tell me, why does it still hurts?


NICA 6 September Previous Entries October 2009	Saturday, October 10, 2009 Sorry for the delay, will blog tomorrow instead. I just got discharged from the hospital. *XOXO* Yours Truly. Thursday, October 8, 2009 "Some prices are just too high, no matter how much you may want the prize. The one thing you can't trade for your heart's desire is your heart." I got up early this morning as mentioned in the last entry because I had a final interview for my attachment. Don’t worry I managed to get out of bed on time. I calculated the time I needed to prepare and travel last night, thinking that I had sufficient time but I was actually 5 minutes late in the end. I thought I was in deep shit for being late but.. I guess I was too early. I sat in my classroom with all the other interviewees and we waited for about 2 hours before the interview started because some of the students had yet to take their first interview. Lucky for me most of them were my classmates or people I knew so it wasn’t exactly boring. Still I wasn’t really happy with the schedule of the school because this wasn’t the first time it happened. During my first interview, not only did they made they made my class miss lesson by conducting the interviews during my lesson time but how about those who are not applying for the job. The poor fellows went to school and left 5minutes after, they were not even informed anything. I still don’t get the point of even making them school when class is cancelled. Well, I think they should do some time planning in future. Back to my main topic.. I am very satisfied with what the company representatives of my attachment offered me. I agreed to do attachment for them after hearing what the job scope and wages were. I was pretty nervous at first though, imagine 4 eyes staring at you but slowly I got more comfortable. So it went smoothly, I guess. After the interview it was already a quarter to 1pm, I had to get hurry up to my classroom before I miss anything important. As for today, the time passed quite fast during my lesson because we were playing tables games with my casino teacher. He was teaching us how to play and the rules of some casino table games. I hope we get to play more tomorrow! Mr James, remember that guy I praised in my previous entry? He fetched me from school.. He even offered to send me to school early in the morning and wait till my class ended, the night before. Now you know why I always say I’m such a lucky girl! We had lunch at his favourite wanton stall near my school before heading home. I made yummy chocolate cornflakes in the afternoon, and I’m proud that it turned out way better than before. I will definitely make again sometime soon and I promise to post pictures of them! James and I killed time by playing with my siblings card games. The punishment for losing was a smack on the hands. Sounds like a simple punishment? Believe me, it’s not. My siblings are one violent little kids; everyone’s hands were all red after playing. I really had a fun day, even though it was a simple day. Maybe because when you’re with your loved ones, simple things can be great wonders to you. Dinner was great by the way; mother never failed to cook such lovely and yummy dishes! My my.. I better stop overeating. I’m feeling really guilty now, just by thinking back about the amount of food down my stomach now. I’m signing off now, Mr James is waiting for me. XOXO Ps. I’ll promise to take more pictures of my life and surroundings. I was planning to do so the past few days but I kept forgetting to bring my digital camera out! Yours Truly. Tuesday, October 6, 2009 "The way to be nothing is to do nothing. " I just had a great meal which I ate so much like there is no tomorrow. I guess, I gained about two kilograms for stuffing myself with so much food today. I guess I do deserve to overeat, once in awhile. Not forgetting to mention, the cool and refreshing bath I had before that. Oh my, I’m already getting tempted to have a good night’s rest right now. So as you all know, though I look like a 13 year old kid. I actually turned 18 years old very recently. While I was eating, an idea struck me.. I decided to write an entry to share with you all about what I’m proud of achieving today and what I wish to achieve but just a sneak peak of it okay? I can be pretty lame at times. I'll start with the achievements first. Though honestly I haven’t achieve much yet, I’m still working really hard of it. I’ll write an entry of what I wish to achieve tomorrow.. For those who know me well, I’m sure you all know what the first one is. It’s actually being able to meet and lucky for me, be with a wonderful guy who understand me and love me for who I am. Whose name is James.. I feel so lucky and honoured to be in love with such a talented, handsome and intelligent guy like him. Though at times, I feel really bad he have to go through my many nonsense. I always had this tiny little phobia of feeling lonely. (Don’t judge me. If not I make this into a private blog.. Hehe, just kidding) I didn’t exactly like the feeling of being an outcast and I wanted to feel like I belonged in where I was. So I did a lot of silly stuff, just to let people know that I wasn’t someone to bully. It’s actually pretty much a long story but to cut it short, I mixed with bad people who my parents disagree with me mixing with and being a teenager in the rebellious stage I just would not stop to even listen. After some disasters and soul searching, I did manage to think straight eventually. But what I learned is not to be so naive, and I’m going to apply what I learned till I grow old. Third on the list, is getting my parents to trust me once again. Believe me, I screwed up real bad before and I don’t wish to screw it ever again. I’m very grateful to them for not giving up on me, when I was in the rebellious stage. They had always been here trying to guide me whenever I need to make important decisions, even till now. And of course, I do believe that I am luckier than other kids out there. ☺ Last achievement that I am going to share is with you all. Is the ability of controlling my temper but still it fails on me now and then but I’m proud that I improved on it. There are a lot of things I want to achieve in life, who doesn’t? If you asked me to tell you one by one, I doubt that I will be able to end. But don’t worry, I’ll write something interesting tomorrow. Promise, big smile I’m finally done with my very long entry.. I guess I have to say goodnight for now as tomorrow will be an early morning for me. I need to report at school by 10am for my final interview with Hollywood resorts. Let you all know the outcome when I get home. Wish me luck! XOXO ♥ Ps. When you smile, my heart was going a thousand miles. Yours Truly. Monday, October 5, 2009 With every heartbeat. There is always the raindrops. so tell me, why does it still hurts? Yours Truly.